sigh...

hate that I could never ever say how I feel... I always back out at the very last moment... Even when people try to reach out to me, I always shrink away, afraid that other people would know how I feel and think that Im just being pathetic... I dont know why Im like that...

emo-ing

recently there seems to be a trend of being emo all the time... you can practically see it everywhere, in facebook, when you go out, when you go to school, on msn... its like being emo is the hottest thing around and I have got to say... I kinda enjoy it =) The main reason for this particular behavior is nobody bothers you when you're in your emo mode and you're free to do whatever you want and nobody is going to blame you since you're being emo (emo people cant control their emotions). However, I can totally relate when some people need to emo since there are a lot of stuff going on in my life which is not for public consumption. When shit happens and all you wanna do is throw your stuff around, scream at the top of your voice, bash people around but you cant then you're forced to resort to being emo. When I'm being emo, my thought bubble is usually saying, "The world is made out of cow dung!" and I really prefer to be left alone (emo people like being left alone). Anyway, the main message that I wish to impart on to my readers (if I have any... Im not going to cry) is sometimes your friends need to be emo once in a while or else they'll go psycho because they have no other way to vent their frustration and anger so I implore that all of you please cut your friends some slack because who knows? maybe tomorrow its your turn =)

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These memories that assail me so suddenly threaten to break me... which makes me wonder whether Im strong enough to overcome it?