Inside of a complex mind

The human brain is the most complex organ of our body and is the most advanced technology in the planet. Without it, we could not function nor perform the most basic actions for example, lift up your arm. On top of that, the human brain is also one of the reasons why we have risen above all the living species on earth. This is due to the fact that humans have the largest brain compared to all the other animals plus we humans use a larger percentage of our brain. Thus, the various feelings that we experience is also the most varied and we could even feel multiple feelings simultaneously which only applies to females. We females could feel a multitude of feelings at the same time resulting in us being so undecided all the time. For example, when a girl asks whether or not shes fat, shes hoping that you would say that she looks totally hot but at the same time she wants you to tell the truth and shes also feeling afraid of your answer. If you say that she looks beautiful, shes wondering whether you are telling the truth and a part of her believes that you are and another part thinks that you are trying to placate her by telling her a lie. As you can see, the females brain can be a really complex thing and you really cant blame the guys for not understanding us since we are far more superior than the guys in the feeling department.
As for me, I always felt that I dont really mix well with the gang that I hang out with. There are many reasons to this which are totally based on my opinion so it might be just be my imagination ( I sure hope so). One of my reasons are they are chinese speaking people and its not to say that I am not but its just that I mingle better with English speaking people because Im better in English compared to chinese. So all the while, Im kinda struggling to converse with them and to top it all Im not that into the things that they are into so Im kinda left out of the conversation sometimes. I know that they didn mean it as I understand that birds a feather flock together but sometimes its a bit hurtful and its a bit of torture for me to force myself on them as I can feel that they are only tolerating me which is not a pleasant feeling but yet I still do it because the feeling of being left out is even unbearable for me compared to the feeling of not being wanted. However, its not to say that I have not put any effort into this matter, its just that its kinda difficult to make somebody accept you when they have a certain perception of you. In some cases when I think I manage to penetrate through the barrier, I get thrown out again which is a bit aggravating. Sometimes, I really feel like giving up and seatch for people that I could hang out with that would accept me as I am but then Im reminded that I dont have any other friends apart from them plus its not their fault that they are like that and yet I keep hoping that they would take me as I am and treat me as one of them.
Well, that practicalle sums up the feelings that Im feeling at the same time. Can you imagine feeling all those at one go?

H1N1 + dumbness

I have finally resurfaced from god knows where... And I have got to say some pretty nasty stuff has been happening around us as you might as well know... Im talking about the H1N1 case. It seems as if its getting worse and you can see loads of people wearing masks nowadays which you cant help but feel a twinge of fear when you see these people. You will be thinking," Oh crap! Why is everybody wearing masks??? I am so going to get myself a whole truck load of masks like right now!!" and off you go buying all the masks that you can get your hands on which results in sold out masks everywhere which also means that I cant buy any!!!! Did you know that the whole of Kampar is almost totally dry of masks? So how in the world are pitiful people like myself going to get any? Please tell me cause I reeeaaaallllyyy wanna know.

Plus note to all those people that think Im a dumbass, you're no better yourself! A*******

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