confused

confused... thats the word to describe myself right now... sometimes I just wanna step back and take a look at my life to see what went wrong but unfortunately you cant be the third party of your own life... I wanna take control of my life... but lately I just feel tired of taking up the reins of playing the main character in Michelle's life... can I just be the not so important character? like maybe those people who just appear in a few scenes. That'll do for me. That way I dont have to contemplate on the reasons some decisions were made... I guess this way my life wont be that confusing...