Regret

I have really tried my very hardest to concentrate in my studies, but I only managed to finish studying one chapter... pretty pathetic... So right now im writing my blog in an attempt to relax so that I could concentrate later. Nothing much going on right now apart from the fact that my life is going to be seriously busy the next two weeks... OH PLEASE GOD! Please give your daughter the strength and the wisdom to see through this semester without passing by the skin of her teeth. And I promise to study everyday! The thought of going through the whole of my degree with such poor results scares me even more that the scary ghost of Ju On. I mean how am I supposed to find a job with such poor results? sigh... The future seems bleak to me... If only God could answer my prayers now... On another note, I honestly do not think im such a dumbo that other people presume me to be... As far as I know, I used to be smarter that all those people studying with me but what I couldn understand is why cant I be as smart as I was before? A nagging voice behind me says, the reason why you have reached such a desolute state is because you dont study enough! But thats what almost everyone says that when your not performing well in any aspect of your life... But I know... The truth is I am not working as hard as everybody else and I shoud really change my attitude before I live to regret it.