wishful thinking

i wish for many things but i dont wish for love...

lie

sometimes i just dont get myself... why i could never say what i really feel? sometimes its better to remain silent and let things continue the way they are... why change when the present is ok? its this thing with humans, we always want more... we could never satisfy our needs and thats exactly how i feel right now... i really wish that i could just be happy with what i have right now but i know thats a lie that i've been telling to myself everyday...

Heart

Dear God, I dont wanna live with a heart... I just wanna be an unfeeling machine.... Or just let me forget everything that has ever happened...

sigh...

I finally reached the epitome of stupid...

enough?

Is it not enough? No matter how hard I try, its just not enough... Even when I do everything that is within my capabilities, theres nothing that could change the fact that Im stupid... In the beginning, I thought that its just me whose not working hard enough to achieve what I want and I always believed that if I just worked harder then I would get what I want. But the world doesn work that way... It likes to lead people on in thinking that effort is all that matters but the truth is... Effort is only a fraction of the iceberg and the rest is fate.
In conclusion, me=stupid...

Drug

Im sending myself to rehab coz you are like a drug to me. I know you're no good for me so Im cleaning myself off of you... Bye...

Looks

Looks can be deceiving. Underneath the person that you thought was the greatest person that you have ever met could be a lying, deceiving cheat that would break your heart when you least expected it. It is difficult to uncover the mask that people put on to hide their true selves from the world but it is not impossible as long as you give it time. I know first hand that believing in people too easily could be hazardous to your health but sometimes you have to have faith that there are some truly good people in this world and that you should not be so jaded as to not believe in anyone that you miss out on some wonderful people in your life. Here I wanna thank some truly good people who has helped me a great deal during my hard times, jer, jo, jo, nick, phang, ven, kc, wq and brian. Thank you so much for being there for me.